It has been a long and brutal year rediscovering how to live with tremendous feelings of grief, pain, and heartache.  I could go on about how much joy Emilia has brought our family - how glad we are to have her in our lives (even though she isn't physically here) -…

My heart has been heavy these last few days.  With Emilia’s Birthday just around the corner, it is only natural that memories of her fill my days a little bit more than usual.  Over this past year, I have learned that my journey is far from solitary, even though at…

I go to bed every night asking myself “How are you still going?” Plenty of days I feel like my heart will stop beating.  I can’t handle the grief anymore and my body just wants to give out from all the pain and sadness.  I have lost my purpose in…

"How many children do you have?" Such a basic and straight-forward question.   Do I deflect and reply with a lie? Or answer honestly and wait for the awkward silence to pass while the stranger stumbles to attempt an awkward apology? Before having Emilia, I would have never had to…